“What
the Hell’s wrong with me?”
“Wretched
man that I am!” This is how Paul put it. Today the expression is found in
the title of this morning’s homily. Each person experiences this despair within
himself. What. Is. Wrong. With. Me?!
Each of us has a civil war within. We
have a duel nature. We are torn. Between our higher and lower selves. Like St.
Paul, we often do not understand why we do certain things. And when we vow. To
ourselves. To our spouse. To our children. To our teachers. To our boss. Not to
practice certain things. That is precisely what we do.
Paul explains this conflict with these
words, “I myself serve the law of God
with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.” v. 25
How do you make sense of this conflict?
How do you understand yourself?
How do you understand yourself? – It is
good and comforting to know Paul was human as we are. He confessed he did not
understand why he did certain things the very thing he did not want to do.
We can say, ‘Paul, join the crowd!’
This reminds us of the doctrine that as Christians we are both saints and
sinners alike. At the very same time. And
the two are ever in conflict until death.
The Christian life is one of inner
conflict. It is a struggle between the lower and the higher selves. It is a
battle between the old and the new Adam. It is a clash between the law of the
body and the law of the mind.
What is so wrong?
1. We do what we don’t
want to do – “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what
I want.” V. 15
The reason for such behavior is simple:
It is the power of sin. “For I know that
nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh.” v. 18 It is sin what makes us do the wrong
thing. Especially when all we want to do is the right thing. “For I have the desire to do what is right,
but not the ability to carry it out.” It is the law of sin. It is the power
of evil that possesses the flesh. It is the unregenerate part of us that
desires evil.
Paul continues, “But I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my
mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members…it is
sin that dwells within me.” V. 20
While the Law in itself is good. The
Law shows us the wrong we do. This calls for a continual battle against
temptation and the evil force that still lives in a Christian.
The Solution: Deny the lower self.
Repent. Realize there is nothing good in you. Try as you might you cannot
overcome the power of sin. Will power does not work. Paul will admit, “I have the desire to do what is right.”
But he has to admit, “I don’t have the
ability to carry it out!”
2. We don’t do what we
want to do – but I do the very
thing I hate. V.15
The reason for all this: Our better
self wants to do right – “I have this
desire to do what is right.” Each of us wants to do the right thing. Not only do we know what is right. We know we
should fulfill it. The victim of this
civil war cries out in despair, “Wretched
man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?” v. 24 This
conflict that persists, can only lead to despair of self.
Is there no end? No way out? Paul found
the solution in Christ for whom he gives thanks for this deliverance. Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our
Lord! V. 25
The Solution: Affirm the higher self?
Better yet, rejoice in Christ’s deliverance. St. Paul says, “For I delight in the law of God, in my inner
being.” v. 22
Christ is your peace. Who brings
together the two warring selves into one integrated, harmonious person. He has
redeemed you. And when we come to Him daily in contrition and faith He forgives
our sins.
But He does us even better. He gives
you His Holy Spirit. So that you can be the hands, the feet, the fingers, and
the toes of Jesus in your world.
This year as we commemorate the anniversary of the Reformation. The Reformers taught that a farmer may worship
God by being a good farmer. The Reformation proclaimed that a parent, changing
diapers, could be as near to Jesus as the Pope. At the time. This was scandal.
But it was also revolutionary.
"We can't be holy in the abstract. Instead we become a holy blacksmith.
Or a holy mother. Or a holy physician. Or a holy systems analyst. We seek God
in and through our particular vocation and place in life…Our task is not to
somehow inject God into our work. But to join God in the work He is already
doing in and through our vocational lives." In short, you become a
sermon in shoes.
"In the daily rhythms for everyone everywhere, we live our lives in the
marketplaces of this world. In homes and neighborhoods. In schools and on
farms. In hospitals and businesses. And our vocations are bound up with the
ordinary work that ordinary people do. We are not great shots across the bow of
history. Rather, by simple grace. We are hints of hope."
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